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Though I don’t have much to say, I thought I might do an
entry anyway.
Lately I’ve felt rather confused about things….
I feel like I’ve been making bad choices- like engaging in
drinking and neglecting my school work- and I need to get out of that.
For example, today I had my French mid term. Did I study
last night? Nope, instead I hung out with people until 2:30 in the morning.
I think still did okay on my exam, but still, I could have and
should have been more prepared.
Also, there is the matter of romantic pursuits. Part of me
wants to pursue things, meet people, maybe go out on dates, but another part
just says fuck all that because I have a ton of work to do. Next semester is
only going to be worse because I’m going to be living in the animal lab in the
science building. Given, I’m really excited about it, but still. I’m not
entirely sure that I’m willing to sacrifice my social life (completely) for
academic quests. In my family, I know that I am expected to be the career
driven bitch. Though I’ve come close to surrendering to that, I’m not entirely
sure that it’s the right thing for me.
Eddie and I argued about writing on Saturday. He said that
my writing lacks emotion and I told him that his writing is a completely
unoriginal D&D rip off. Of course I still stand by my position that there
are no original ideas. Why, you might ask? Well, because I am 100% sure that
Jung was smarter than probably anyone in this nation right now and if he was right
about the collective conscious this means that humans are not capable of coming
up with truly original ideas. Everything we do is going to relate back to one
archetype or another. No, this isn’t something that Dr. Tucker talked about,
but perhaps I’ll mention it to him. Matter of fact, I think this is a pretty
interesting concept I’ve come up with so I think I’ll do a lit search (as I’m
positive I’m not the first person to have thought of this) and bring it up next
time I see Tucker. Maybe he’d even let me write a special paper on this instead
of the topics for assignment 2. Perhaps I could incorporate some research on
whether or not feral children still express archetypes. Also, how much of the
collective unconscious has a biological basis? SHIT DAMN!!!! I fucking love
this shit. I would like to talk with Tucker about these things, but he’s so
unapproachable. I mean, the man is intimidating. He’s done guest lectures at
top notch schools- Harvard, Cambridge,
Oxford, and so on. Obviously, his
credentials were well earned. Who am I- Emily Evans, slightly above average
shepherd college student- to approach him with ideas?
I need to start keeping a notebook of research ideas. I’ve
come up with two so far this semester that I would like to pursue in greater
depth. Maybe I’ll just combine it with my story/writing notebook. It’s all the
same thing, right?
Jung has begun to exhibit some interesting behaviors in his
new tank. Already he has learned where the food comes from in the morning and
he frequently perches himself atop the dormant aeration tube.
Also, beyond my mid terms tomorrow I signed up to take this
test of psychological knowledge. It will be good practice for the GRE I believe.
Also, I need some brownie points with Dr. D. I’m asking a lot of him, Dr. C,
and the science department.
My writing needs some serious work. Maybe I’ll get into
odyssey this summer. Speaking of which, I should start working on the
manuscript now so that I can make it fucking amazing.
Ho hum. Lots of things to do.
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